I thought I was strong enough these days but i was wrong. I was weak to the bone. if i cud freeze it in my mind, I'm sure i would have done it. Life is never this messed up, and i was never this fragile. Even she said that, "i have never seen you this weak before".

Why kept everything from me. why lied.

Am I just the black sheep again?

I've lost my calmness and now the beach and standing hours on the highway crossover are my source of tranquility.

I have to put aside everything else, and not run away from the problem....again.