wonderful life.

As i entered the world of 21, i began to see things in front of me as precious life. Very precious that it makes life so fragile especially when u feel like you are at the top. I see clearly, as I have never been able to see, the beauty that it brings to those who still have time to cherish life as it is. My point? Live life to the fullest, as you never know how much time you have left to stay.

I saw people taking things for granted, I have learned my lesson - the hard way. I saw people putting hopes in others' hand and then simply crushed it away like the wind blown sand - I have been one the hope crushers. I saw tears flow like waterfall, when people lost the people they love - I have been there. I saw happy tears spill and I have experienced that.

Life taught me on how to be independent. It's a hard teacher that made me a person with a heart made of steel. And sometimes, a short-term memory lost patient. It taught me to build barriers between me and the others so that only certain people can me through which apparently, only one so far. It taught me to not give up when all the hopes are failing. The lessons have given me a strong backbone to stand still when crashed by storms.

But yet still, I need a shoulder to cry on. Those storms may come with different speed, and when it is really strong, I, sometimes slipped and fell on the ground.

Life is beautiful. I learned to be needed and be needy. Even when I think I don't need anyone, He sent me someone to take care of me, from a distant and close by. I learned to appreciate others and feel appreciated. I learned to cherish simple things and be cherished for the small things I did for others. I learned to make others happy even it is by them making me happy, and enjoy their companies with an open heart.

I now know how to let go of myself, when I am with people I'm comfortable with. I know that a woman with a heart of steel can still melt unexpectedly.

This journey I've been through, is complicated. I left those I loved but I carry the memories I had with them with me. So that when I feel like the most miserable people on earth, I can still smile at the back of my face and think; I've been happy, so a bit of unhappiness will not take me down. (I hope).

For all those tears I caused,
For all those hearts I broke,
For all those hard times I gave to people,
For all the burdens I put on their shoulder.
I'm sorry.

For all the happy memories you gave me,
For all the wonderful days I've had,
For all the unexpected smiles,
For all the times you spent.
Thank you.

I am a mere human. I make mistakes, and I sometimes lack the sense of sensitivity.
I am just a normal human being as how you are, I cry hard, I whine, I have temper, and I have my egos.

I love you even when I don't show it. I miss you and sometimes I just don't know it.


From the bottom of my heart,
Nur Akmal Abu Bakar